So our contracts grades were released last week. The anticipation was dreadful, but I think for many folks the revelation was anti-climactic. It appears that the consensus is that “yeah, my grade makes sense.” Revealing one’s grade is a taboo, danced-around topic. Everyone wants to know what everyone got, but not enough to ask or divulge your own grade.
But before the grade was released, the basic thought that ran through many minds goes as follows: “I have failed this class. I will be repeating this class… no worse…I will drop out of law school and be forced to hide under a rock, for I have failed at life.” I know this fear cropped up every once in a while in my head. It seems very tangible and can quickly grow into a perceived inevitability – almost as if though the worst case scenario has already happened.
For now, the only thing that can be done is to keep trudging along in the summer quarter (can anyone tell me why this quarter is vastly more enjoyable than the last and why it’s … kind of fun?). Whatever happened on those April and May mornings at 8am is done and can never be changed, coming to terms with that is relieving. However, if I had a time machine I’d go back and add something on my CivPro final. I can’t freakin’ believe I missed something that huge and it still gets me. Too bad time travel is impossible. Although if it were possible we’d all have higher GPAs; unfortunately we’d have to do battle with SkyNet. Earning a higher GPA or doing battle with robots? Worth it?
-WK
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